Showing posts from December, 2009


I'll be glad when 2009 is over! Good riddance to a very bad year! I can't think of anything good that came out of that year, really I can't. The husband made less money but seemed to be at work during every event and party that was planned. I haven't had a holiday in over 13 years and 2009 was no exception. I didn't even go for a haircut in 2009! I just made do trimming my bangs. So now I have long flat graying hair, really attractive, NOT! I think pretty well everything broke here at one time or another and we struggled all year to just survive.

So I for one will be glad to see the back end of 2009 it was a year that sucked, maybe even the worst year I've had for a very long time. When I think of what I would like to begin in the new year I want to crawl up in a ball and go to sleep. Everything will take more energy than I have these days. This house needs so much work and money and I have neither of these. The husband would live in a cave and never…

I'm gonna cry!

I'm sitting here as the bathtub hot tap is running full and has been for over 20 minutes. Why, you ask is the tap on full for 20 minutes? Well it's because I can't turn it off and there is no shut off valve behind the taps where there should be. I have no idea what else to do but leave it run. I'm really worried that the hot water tank is going to break because of all the cold water that is going to be coming into it so quickly.

I have my daughter to thank for this disaster. This child has no idea how to turn a tap off. She will start turning it one way all the way and then give it a few more just to make sure it's not off. Well of course it's not off you silly child, the water is running full on! The tap is stripped now. ARG!!!

So here I sit in tears knowing that this is one more thing that we can't afford to fix. My husband is worse than a moron at fixing anything and with my bad back and sore knee I can't kneel down to fix anything like that …

Random pics for your enjoyment, or not

Here's a picture of our fat orange cat. Now I remember why I don't post more pictures, it takes forever to upload them! I don't know if it's my computer or Blogger but it takes so long I almost nodded off. So if I don't post pictures often that's why.

Here's a picture of our Christmas tree. I don't know why I'm posting it now but we'll be taking it down soon, maybe tomorrow. It looks pretty lame in this picture but it looks much prettier in person.

Oh and I forgot to say we have some snow now. Not alot but the ground is now white. It happened a few days after Christmas. We are supposed to get more snow for the next few days and I've got my fingers crossed.

New Years Resolutions

New Years Eve looms. It's a time to take stock and look back over the past year. Time to decide what you want to do with the brand new year. Already I'm sick of hearing about all the things I'm supposed to want or do. I'm supposed to want to eat well, exercise and be healthy. I'm supposed to want a simpler life where I take time to enjoy every moment. I'm supposed to help my loved ones and others. I'm supposed to want to work for the environment to help stop the destruction. The list is endless and one thing is no more important or valid than the next. What happens to me is I become overwhelmed by all the people telling me they know what the right way to live a life is.

I want to hear someone say it's okay to live a life where you eat what you want, don't exercise much. I want to hear that what I'm doing is good enough, I don't need to work on anything because I'm perfect just the way I am.

Who wouldn't want to hear that? I …

Eat dirt

It's really difficult to be a middle child. I know cause I'm the middle of four with an older sister, younger brother and a youngest sister. They all have their places and got their own attention but I was not allowed to have wants and needs because someone else always came first. I learned very quickly it was best to keep quiet and be invisible. I wouldn't wish that childhood on anyone.

For me it continues with my mother and oldest sister always ganging up on me. Mom will start with a rude comment about something I've said and basically tell me my opinion is wrong and I should be quiet now. It always blows me away when another adult thinks they can talk like this to someone else and not get decked in the face. I'm still not allowed to voice an opinion and when I do first mother dog then her yipping little lap mutt have to start barking.

Sad thing about this is the yippy little lap dog (aka older sister) is in no position to judge anyone. She hasn't had …

It's Christmas Eve!

I actually like Christmas eve better than Christmas day. Christmas eve is fun cause of all the excitement and waiting while Christmas day is the end of anticipation. Christmas eve still has possibilities like you can still rush to the store to pick up one more thing but by Christmas day it's done and the stores are closed.

It's 1:18am and I can't sleep. I had to take a nap this afternoon because of my headache so now I can't sleep. Stupid headache!

Husband and I were talking about meals for tomorrow and the big day. He never wants to make anything special. He just goes about with no planning or thought to everything in his life. Drives me nuts cause I'm a planner. I got him to commit to Christmas eve supper and Christmas day brunch but even that was a compromise. He doesn't see the fun in having something special or doing anything out of the ordinary. I don't think I've ever met such a boring person and I'm still in amazement that I actuall…


I've been struggling with a migraine since yesterday. I keep getting the visual aura plus my neck is sore. Lucky I haven't got the full blown headache just a mild one but I've been taking migraine meds with caffeine and codeine in them and they seem to help. I used to get migraines when I was a teenager but grew out of them. I suspect that perimenopause has me going through puberty backwards and boy does this suck. My face even breaks out horrible now and again just like when I was a teen. I'm too old for this crap, bring on menopause cause I'm done with all these hormones!

So we are going to be having a green Christmas as per the weather report. I guess it will be okay but I really don't feel like Christmas much unless I'm stuck inside with the snow falling. I love that warm cozy feeling. Oh well we'll just have to pretend this year.

I'm contemplating doing some more baking but with this lingering headache I'm not sure I'm up to it. …

Still no snow

Boo hoo! It's now raining and all our snow if melting fast. Not like we had much anyway. I can't quite believe we are going to have a snowless Christmas. Can you believe it? I can't. I live in Canada for goodness sakes, in the mountains no less! I want to put in a complaint to Mother Nature. It's just not right.
So that was my whine for the day now on to something else. How about I ask you if you have all your shopping done? LOL! I can see your face and you want to smack me, I know it! You are rushing around trying to get it all done and I am sitting here all smug laughing at you. It's not like you don't know when Christmas is coming. It comes once a year on the same date. You could plan in advance and work to get it all done so you can actually enjoy a bit of the time and not get all stressed out and cranky. But I see that the stress and rush is part of the fun for you so I'll be quiet now. Some people just aren't having fun if they are…

Please Mr. Weatherman

Oh curses!!! Our lovely snow is supposed to turn into rain. Who wants slushy snow for Christmas? Not me that's who! There is nothing worse than slushy snow. I've got my fingers crossed that the weather reports are wrong and we'll continue to get snow and the rain stays away.

Last night as I was laying in bed I was composing my song called "Making Memories". Of course I didn't write it down but here's what I remember of it.

The ground is iced white
Icicles sparkle from the eves
It's time, time, time time
For making memories

Fires crackle in the grate
Snow drifts are shoveled
Presents are wrapped
Cause it's time, time, time
For making memories

A special feeling is in the air
Magic and wonder grow

Sorry that's as far as I got before I drifted off. I'll finish it up when I have some time and post the finished version.

Less Stuff, More Time

I've been so busy reading all the wonderful blogs I'm following and what they are up to that I've kinda lagged at writing anything in my own blog. So here's a summary of what I've done in the last few days. We got the tree up and decorated. Finished up the shopping. I still want to bake a few more things but if I don't we won't die.
We still have no snow and it's really cold out there. I want some snow for Christmas dang it!
I've spent the entire weekend chauffeuring the kids around and haven't had more than 2 minutes to do anything I enjoy. I don't think I like being a single parent every weekend, it sucks.
I have a couple of presents left to wrap and we are pretty much done. I just wish I had some fun party or event to go to. I'm pretty much on my own most days and alone with the kids when they are off school. The husband is working as much as possible but that kind of defeats the whole idea in my view. We could do with less stu…

Nearly naked

Yesterday I went out to shop for a new blouse. Just something I can wear at Christmas, nothing fancy. I found many blouses that didn't fit. But the most puzzling thing I found was that most of these blouses were see through. Like when you hold the material up to the light you can actually see through it although it's not a mesh or supposed to be that sheer. I could actually make out my husbands features when I held up this one blouse.
There were of course a ton of blouses that were sheer and had a cammy underneath them. I get that these are supposed to be see through a bit. It's the other fabric that gets me. Who buys blouses so thin and see through that the fabric is almost like a sheer? It's not a fashion statement.
I have another problem with these blouses too, it's winter! I'd freeze if I wore any of these blouses even inside the house. They look like something I'd wear in summer not winter other than the darker colors. Sheesh!
So a heads up t…

A Green Christmas

It is freezing here! Tonight it's down to -12C. We have had a week of clear sunny weather and if it doesn't snow soon I'm going to become an ice cube. The snow acts as an insulation barrier on the ground and on the roof so it actually keeps things warmer. Now we have the cold we just need some precipitation.
My daughter keeps complaining that we don't have any snow yet and it's almost Christmas. We had a couple light snows that melted fast and then nothing. There is nothing worse than a green Christmas unless you live in Florida or somewhere warm where it's supposed to be green.
Not only do we have a real green Christmas tree but the grass will be still green so it's going to be a very green Christmas unless we get some snow and fast.


The Christmas rush is on and I haven't got as much baking done as I hoped to by now. Oh well I don't really need to eat all that junk anyway. I remember when the kids were little and I never got to sleep for over a year due to my baby crying and not sleeping. I was so tired that I didn't bake anything at all and I'm surprised that presents were bought, wrapped and a tree was put up that year.
Now I'm not struggling with lack of sleep but total lack of energy. Coffee only perks me up for a bit and then I have a huge crash. If I'm watching tv when the crash comes I'll actually nod off!! Now that makes me feel like a really old person falling asleep in my chair. UG! I'm way too young to act that old.
So I'm looking into some type of a fitness regime. I don't want any pieces of large expensive equipment in my living room that I don't use though. I want something that is compact, inexpensive and I'll actually use. I guess that will h…

The Art of Writing a Letter

Do you ever have those moments when things come together? You know like Oprah calls them "ah ha moments." I had one last night. It was only a small one but it made me smile.
I was reading this book called "The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society" by Mary Ann Shaffer and Annie Barrows. It's about a writer after the WW II. It's set up to be a bunch of letters being send back and forth between the characters. There are some short notes sent by telegram too. As I was reading these letters it suddenly occurred to me that these letters reminded me of interactions we have on the Internet today. We can pass quick e-mails or chat online. The only difference is the time between the contact. Even some blogs I read are like letters it's just that you don't address your blog to anyone in particular. E-mails to people are letters but we can send them off and know they arrived in a couple of minutes.
The telegrams in the book were short and witt…

It's all too much

That's how I'm feeling lately. That it's all too much. I won't go on about all the things that are getting me down but they are piling up lately. So I've decided what I need is some retail therapy. Yes I am going to go spend some money that I don't have on some things that I may not really need. LOL!
Actually I was going to go and buy some Christmas craft things for my daughter and a couple friends to make Christmas gifts for their teachers. I thought maybe some felt stockings that they can decorate and put gift certificates, candies or whatever inside would be fun for them to do. So I need those supplies.
I really need some new clothes. The hoody I wear all winter to stay warm has holes in it and I just got wax all over it. I also spilled wax all over one of the tee shirts I wear all the time. I can get the wax out but it will stain as the shirt is a light color and the wax is a dark green. So I need some more shirts and some kind of a sweater to we…