At one point this year early in the year I felt strongly that 2023 was going to be a fantastic year. Like I felt it in my bones the feeling was so strong. Instead it has been the worst year ever.
My daughter broke up with her boyfriend and moved back in with us and then her mental health went downhill. It was over a month of helping her through it that she finally started to get her mind back again. I started to feel hopeful for the future then even though there were now 4 adults living in our very small one bathroom house.
That hope was quickly dashed as the son was laid off his job. He has only worked at that job for just under a year and they closed the department he was working in laid off 10 people. We had hope that he would move out soon and now with no job that wasn't going to happen.
Then the daughter's mental health tanked again and she had to be hospitalized. It is so stressful to see her like this and I'm sure it's even worse for her. We hope the medications start to work soon because it's horrible for her and us every day.
The son had an interview at our local hospital to work in the kitchen or do cleaning. They say they need employees badly and are having trouble finding any. We figured it was a sure thing for him as he is a good worker who would show up and do his job and he lives in walking distance to the hospital. Just found out today that they didn't hire him. So not sure if there is some sexism going on or what the problem is but if they are so desperate for employees why didn't they hire him?
There are few jobs that you don't need a degree or special training for right now in our small town. He has missed the hiring for summer relief so no jobs.
My life is trying to keep things going in our cramped house and going to the hospital several times a day or bringing the daughter home for bits of the day. I don't get time or have the energy to do anything for myself and my stress level is through the roof not to mention my blood pressure I'm sure.
I'm so bone tired from not being able to sleep that I'm just dragging myself through the day hoping for something good, anything good, to happen. Each time I'd had a glimmer of hope this year it has been smacked down and now I'm barely hanging on. I'm not sure if I can take any more bad stuff happening.
So 2023 you suck and I'll be so happy when you are over!!!
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