Being a mom is hard work. It's hard work physically when they are small and hard work emotionally when they are adults. It's hard to see your child even if he or she is an adult have their heart hurt. You can't really help and it reminds you of all the times you've suffered the same. It just all round hurts.
I know that learning is sometimes about painful experiences and you can't and shouldn't take that away from anyone. The hard times are sometimes what and when you learn the most from. You learn resilience, patience and strength from difficult times. Would you want your child never to learn those important lessons? Every good parent wants their children to learn and grow and be happy in life. You can't insulate them from every bump or pain or you take away their chance to grow.
So my heart hurts tonight for my adult child and it sucks. I know what they will learn from this experience but I wonder what the heck I am learning from this? I've had my heart broken enough times to know it sucks and have learned my lessons but what is it I learn from this heart hurt for my child?
I've had enough of these kind of lessons at my age. I want to have less hurt and more light in my heart. I'm strong enough, patient enough and resilient enough I don't need any more lessons. One would think my struggle against this feeling means I need more lessons but in fact it means I've had a few too many.
I need more light in my heart.
I know that learning is sometimes about painful experiences and you can't and shouldn't take that away from anyone. The hard times are sometimes what and when you learn the most from. You learn resilience, patience and strength from difficult times. Would you want your child never to learn those important lessons? Every good parent wants their children to learn and grow and be happy in life. You can't insulate them from every bump or pain or you take away their chance to grow.
So my heart hurts tonight for my adult child and it sucks. I know what they will learn from this experience but I wonder what the heck I am learning from this? I've had my heart broken enough times to know it sucks and have learned my lessons but what is it I learn from this heart hurt for my child?
I've had enough of these kind of lessons at my age. I want to have less hurt and more light in my heart. I'm strong enough, patient enough and resilient enough I don't need any more lessons. One would think my struggle against this feeling means I need more lessons but in fact it means I've had a few too many.
I need more light in my heart.
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