I still haven't found that spark, the thing that makes you happy to get up in the morning. Ever since I had my kids I've kind of lost myself. I'm not blaming it on the kids because it isn't their fault it's mine. I've let the taking care of them take over and forgot to take care of me. This has left me unhappy and unhealthy.
With my energy level so low it's impossible to get going. I want to do stuff, really I do but when it comes down to it I just don't have the get up and go to do anything. I was hanging laundry up on the clothes line and my arms started aching so much I had to rest them. Sheesh!
I'd exercise but it just makes me more tired and then I have to have a nap. I should see a Dr. but I've never found any Dr. who truly listens to you if you are overweight. They will attribute all your health concerns to needing to lose weight and think you a stupid cow on top of that! My Dr. right now is a young girl who doesn't seem to have a clue about what aging women go through.
I wonder if the foods we eat are a large part of the problem with many people's health. So I get myself thinking I need to eat better and then find some recipes only to realize that I don't have the energy to stand there and make all that stuff, it will take hours every day.
I think at this point I'd best just lay down and hope for a quick painless death cause going on like this is torture. I can go out and pretend to be healthy and energetic but when I get home I feel like crawling into bed and sleeping for hours. My joints ache, my back aches and exercise only makes that worse. I've tried exercising gently but that makes everything swell up in this heat.
I just wish there was an answer that didn't involve me having to fake having energy cause I have none, nill, nada, zippo. I think I need a hormone check and even though my Dr. will insist that there is nothing wrong with me that losing weight won't cure I'm going to club her upside the head and tell her that if she doesn't understand the chicken and the egg thing then she needs to go back to school. The weight got put on because of the lack of energy and not the other way around. What caused the lack of energy? Are my hormones messed up, is my thyroid malfunctioning? Please, please find an answer cause I don't mind exercising really I don't and I can eat healthy foods, I actually like them. I just can't live without energy.
Even typing this with my swollen hands has tired me out. If it were cool enough I'd go to bed but the heat is still horrible at 1:30am and sleep is far away. I wish I could sleep in the summer. It's another summer of no sleep and swelling from the heat. UG!
With my energy level so low it's impossible to get going. I want to do stuff, really I do but when it comes down to it I just don't have the get up and go to do anything. I was hanging laundry up on the clothes line and my arms started aching so much I had to rest them. Sheesh!
I'd exercise but it just makes me more tired and then I have to have a nap. I should see a Dr. but I've never found any Dr. who truly listens to you if you are overweight. They will attribute all your health concerns to needing to lose weight and think you a stupid cow on top of that! My Dr. right now is a young girl who doesn't seem to have a clue about what aging women go through.
I wonder if the foods we eat are a large part of the problem with many people's health. So I get myself thinking I need to eat better and then find some recipes only to realize that I don't have the energy to stand there and make all that stuff, it will take hours every day.
I think at this point I'd best just lay down and hope for a quick painless death cause going on like this is torture. I can go out and pretend to be healthy and energetic but when I get home I feel like crawling into bed and sleeping for hours. My joints ache, my back aches and exercise only makes that worse. I've tried exercising gently but that makes everything swell up in this heat.
I just wish there was an answer that didn't involve me having to fake having energy cause I have none, nill, nada, zippo. I think I need a hormone check and even though my Dr. will insist that there is nothing wrong with me that losing weight won't cure I'm going to club her upside the head and tell her that if she doesn't understand the chicken and the egg thing then she needs to go back to school. The weight got put on because of the lack of energy and not the other way around. What caused the lack of energy? Are my hormones messed up, is my thyroid malfunctioning? Please, please find an answer cause I don't mind exercising really I don't and I can eat healthy foods, I actually like them. I just can't live without energy.
Even typing this with my swollen hands has tired me out. If it were cool enough I'd go to bed but the heat is still horrible at 1:30am and sleep is far away. I wish I could sleep in the summer. It's another summer of no sleep and swelling from the heat. UG!
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