Christmas is over and it was grand! We had no snow up until the week before Christmas and then it dumped a ton on us including a couple of feet on Christmas day itself. Now when I was a kid we would have taken advantage and gone sledding. My kids stayed inside and played their new video games.
It's Dec 29th and now I have to get the house cleaned up for New Years. Not because I'm having people over, cause I'm not, but because I like to start the new year off clean. That means crisp clean sheets, clean jammies, and a clean house. I think this year everyone will join in on the tasks instead of just me doing them all. I'm sure my 12 year old can scrub the tub just as well as I can and my 10 year old can dust something or wash a floor.
My husband has to work early New Years Day so he won't be staying up late and I think the kids will go to bed early too. I'm the one who will have to put up with them all the next day. If they would only learn how to sleep in after they are up late it would be good but they haven't mastered that art yet. I guess I have to wait for the teen years for that.
The year is almost done and I'm afraid I didn't make use of it as well as I should or could have. That's the feeling I have at the end of each year now. It's like a dread that I've wasted a year and haven't accomplished anything. So that makes me write a summary of the year to see what I can remember. Usually I come up with lots of things I'd forgotten about and then I don't feel so bad but this year I haven't come up with much of anything. I cheated and wrote all the things my kids did and will have to take part claim to their accomplishments instead.
I wonder if other people feel this way too? Will I ever have a year that I look back and feel I've done enough or well enough to feel satisfied and proud? Or will I just continue to feel mystified that so much time has gone by and I've not done anything with it other than exist. Is this part of getting older? If it is I think I could do without it. I want to be one of those people that take trips to fun places, go to parties and do things. I'm tired of staying home. I actually haven't left the house since Christmas day, some 4 days now. I hear about the home renovations my older sister is doing, the cabin on the ocean my brother and family rented, and the trip to Cancun my younger sister and family is taking soon. I have nothing to add to the conversation. Even my aging parents do more than I do. They went to Spokane and saw the Lord of the Dance and travel all the time. Me I'm stuck in this falling down shack with two kids and a husband that just doesn't understand.
So my hopes for 2009 is that something in my life changes for the better and it better come soon cause I'm tired of waiting.
It's Dec 29th and now I have to get the house cleaned up for New Years. Not because I'm having people over, cause I'm not, but because I like to start the new year off clean. That means crisp clean sheets, clean jammies, and a clean house. I think this year everyone will join in on the tasks instead of just me doing them all. I'm sure my 12 year old can scrub the tub just as well as I can and my 10 year old can dust something or wash a floor.
My husband has to work early New Years Day so he won't be staying up late and I think the kids will go to bed early too. I'm the one who will have to put up with them all the next day. If they would only learn how to sleep in after they are up late it would be good but they haven't mastered that art yet. I guess I have to wait for the teen years for that.
The year is almost done and I'm afraid I didn't make use of it as well as I should or could have. That's the feeling I have at the end of each year now. It's like a dread that I've wasted a year and haven't accomplished anything. So that makes me write a summary of the year to see what I can remember. Usually I come up with lots of things I'd forgotten about and then I don't feel so bad but this year I haven't come up with much of anything. I cheated and wrote all the things my kids did and will have to take part claim to their accomplishments instead.
I wonder if other people feel this way too? Will I ever have a year that I look back and feel I've done enough or well enough to feel satisfied and proud? Or will I just continue to feel mystified that so much time has gone by and I've not done anything with it other than exist. Is this part of getting older? If it is I think I could do without it. I want to be one of those people that take trips to fun places, go to parties and do things. I'm tired of staying home. I actually haven't left the house since Christmas day, some 4 days now. I hear about the home renovations my older sister is doing, the cabin on the ocean my brother and family rented, and the trip to Cancun my younger sister and family is taking soon. I have nothing to add to the conversation. Even my aging parents do more than I do. They went to Spokane and saw the Lord of the Dance and travel all the time. Me I'm stuck in this falling down shack with two kids and a husband that just doesn't understand.
So my hopes for 2009 is that something in my life changes for the better and it better come soon cause I'm tired of waiting.
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