So it's been a few months since I blogged anything. It's not for lack of having anything to say either. It's just, that sometimes it feels more like work than joy and I have so much work and so little joy in my life at the moment that I'll skip the work when I can.
Everything seems to be in need of repair lately. After 18 years of marriage things are just lots of hard work. Even though I know that this is just one of the lows it's still no fun. My daughter has decided that grade four is too stressful for her and has taken to not being able to fall asleep at night. Not only that but she has taken to waking me up to tell me she can't sleep. sigh
My teeth hurt and I have a cold. Not sure if the teeth is because of my sinuses or I need a dentist but since it's likely I need some expensive dental work I'll call the dentist first. I'm betting the expensive dental work mainly because we have no money to pay for it and that's the way things have been going.
The car is still leaking antifreeze even after the mechanic replaced the hose that was leaking. I'm not sure when we can take it in to have the mechanic not fix it again.
My house is a disaster zone. No really, a disaster zone! We live 4 people in a very small house, main living area is 800sq. feet. No room for the people let alone all the stuff the people have. And my body has decided to give up on me. I'm gaining weight and my joints are killing me. The pain leads me to be less active which is most likely why I'm gaining weight. But then maybe the weight is what's causing the joint pain in the first place. UGH! Either way I hurt and I'm tired.
Yes, I should see my Dr. but I don't really have one. I used to have a Dr. but she decided to quit her practice when her Dr. husband was sick with cancer. She hasn't come back and he's died. I doubt she'll ever come back. This means I'm left with a locum at the clinic. My last check up was with a young girl who seemed to be shocked that I was married. I'm not sure why but the last time I checked old fat people did get married. So, I've not got alot of confidence in seeing a Dr. right now but I will go see one right after I have the dentist check my teeth. At least the Dr appointment will be free so no excuse for that one.
I feel old, tired, in pain and just plain old overwhelmed. That's why most of my projects have been left in the dust. I know I'll feel better if I work on something so I'm updating my blog. I still haven't got my spark back and in fact I've got less spark now than I did when I started this blog, if that's possible.
The garden is beckoning me to plant something, anything, now that it finally feels like spring. Well technically it's spring but we pretty much jump from winter into summer here. It was 30C today and the heat just about killed me. It's hard to adjust to it after it's just been unseasonably cold and then wham it's 30C! I had to dust off the overhead fan so I could turn it on today.
I promise my next post will have some wild stunt in it! Okay, maybe it won't be wild but I'm sure I'll have some nice Mother's Day story to tell by then.
Everything seems to be in need of repair lately. After 18 years of marriage things are just lots of hard work. Even though I know that this is just one of the lows it's still no fun. My daughter has decided that grade four is too stressful for her and has taken to not being able to fall asleep at night. Not only that but she has taken to waking me up to tell me she can't sleep. sigh
My teeth hurt and I have a cold. Not sure if the teeth is because of my sinuses or I need a dentist but since it's likely I need some expensive dental work I'll call the dentist first. I'm betting the expensive dental work mainly because we have no money to pay for it and that's the way things have been going.
The car is still leaking antifreeze even after the mechanic replaced the hose that was leaking. I'm not sure when we can take it in to have the mechanic not fix it again.
My house is a disaster zone. No really, a disaster zone! We live 4 people in a very small house, main living area is 800sq. feet. No room for the people let alone all the stuff the people have. And my body has decided to give up on me. I'm gaining weight and my joints are killing me. The pain leads me to be less active which is most likely why I'm gaining weight. But then maybe the weight is what's causing the joint pain in the first place. UGH! Either way I hurt and I'm tired.
Yes, I should see my Dr. but I don't really have one. I used to have a Dr. but she decided to quit her practice when her Dr. husband was sick with cancer. She hasn't come back and he's died. I doubt she'll ever come back. This means I'm left with a locum at the clinic. My last check up was with a young girl who seemed to be shocked that I was married. I'm not sure why but the last time I checked old fat people did get married. So, I've not got alot of confidence in seeing a Dr. right now but I will go see one right after I have the dentist check my teeth. At least the Dr appointment will be free so no excuse for that one.
I feel old, tired, in pain and just plain old overwhelmed. That's why most of my projects have been left in the dust. I know I'll feel better if I work on something so I'm updating my blog. I still haven't got my spark back and in fact I've got less spark now than I did when I started this blog, if that's possible.
The garden is beckoning me to plant something, anything, now that it finally feels like spring. Well technically it's spring but we pretty much jump from winter into summer here. It was 30C today and the heat just about killed me. It's hard to adjust to it after it's just been unseasonably cold and then wham it's 30C! I had to dust off the overhead fan so I could turn it on today.
I promise my next post will have some wild stunt in it! Okay, maybe it won't be wild but I'm sure I'll have some nice Mother's Day story to tell by then.
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