Showing posts from December, 2018

Good Bye 2018

The last two years have been a real struggle.  I'll be glad when this one is over.  My hope is 2019 will be better than this year has been.  I've been feeling more and more like there is no hope for anything anymore.  I keep having pep talks with myself but then fall back down the black hole again. UG!

I want to hear happy good hopeful stories.  I want to hear funny things that make me laugh.  I want everyone else to be happy for a bit and not angry and bitter.  I don't expect to be happy all the time but it sure would be nice to feel some hope.

I used to eat my feelings but now I have chosen not to do that anymore because I want to improve my health and that become a problem.  I find I don't have anything to look forward to now.  This is a struggle if you can't reward yourself for getting through the day.  What does everyone else do?

I wish that things would get better but I have no hope for that right now.  The days feel endless and empty and dark.  So my hope is…